There’s a place in time I always go back to
A bedroom in the home I slept
Where I prayed for love, and I begged you
To stop the cycle you beat me as I wept
You broke the eggs upon whose shells I walked
I hung on your every word, obeyed your every rule
You praised me vehemently though you never talked
The bruises, scars, forced to change my school
One second you were evil; the next, you were fine
I cherished your love unlike any other
You’d move with care and turn on a dime
Nothing a daughter should see in her mother
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Admired
Roaring ocean, warm air, throat burning
Heart pounding, lungs begging for air
Mind vulnerable, loneliness’s glare turning
Eyes on me, a move to make I cannot bare
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Choices escape clarity, nowhere to hide
Glances cause insecurity, vagueness looms
Specificity, a battle inside
Decisions each clearly own their dooms
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Fighting feeling meaning, future unknown
Despite effort and exhaustion, sleep escapes
The toil and depression, my own
The tomorrow my choice shapes
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A dream ever so frantically persistent
Constantly tearing me from the certain
Fault my own, mind so insistent
A beautiful future awaiting a pull of the curtain
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Watch the pull of the tide
As I craft the end, so long desired
Prevailing decisions, influenced by what’s inside
A future beautiful, designed by me and by all, admired
Always
To the destruction caused by the seeking of information, I pity myself. Lost in thought at the possibility of an emergence of once lost feeling. As much a surprise as any, I know you see I’ve kept the Archive alive.
Continue readingWhy?
God, what reason is there for this to be so hard to forget? You’ve torn me limb from limb. You’ve destroyed me in ways I couldn’t have even begun to imagine. I’ve been embarrassed and disrespected in front of people I thought would never know our truth. My heart and my soul are exhausted and I’m finding it hard to to keep my head above water. In this world and in this Love, I’m drowning. The one thing on my mind is this question I keep asking myself…Why?
If there is one thing I’m consistently good at, it’s finding the good in the terrible. I’ve found strength I didn’t know I had, Love where I thought it would surely run out. My heart is stronger than I could’ve ever imagined. Continue reading
My Ghost
For not once, a reason you could supply
I’ll be in every leaf you burn, every crystal shard
I was the Love you were so ready to deny
Good luck not reading me in every tarot card
There isn’t a time, or person, nor place
You can go to escape from under my thumb
You’ve made your bed, now see my face
I’ll be the nightmare you can’t wake from Continue reading
Venom
I never thought you could break me
My love was steadfast, unending, resilient
You set out to prove me wrong, to the depths of hell you’d take me
A plan concocted, by an evil mind, so brilliant
Boasting helping hands, you refused to lend them
My heart a casualty to the siren song that was sung
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