The thunder outside, resonates with the thunder in my heart. It’s been so long since I’ve felt this feeling in my body. I tremble at the thought of you. Tremble, at the thought of your touch. Tremble… until I feel your lips on mine. My time, the last few days, has been spent in a state of euphoric terror. A pleasant hell. Not because I dislike the love we have, but because I fear losing it.

Overanalyzing every word I speak before it has the chance to leave my mouth.

I fear… I fear… I FEAR the thought of chasing you away. Your soul connects with mine on a level I wasn’t sure was possible. Even now, as you sleep so peaceful in your bed, I’m afraid you’ll awake and realize I’m not what you want.

The thunder crashes outside reverberating through my chest, and I’m afraid. Rain taps and flows on the window like the beat of my pulse, and I’m alone. Wind passes through the window and holds me like a lover, and I’m cold. The fear of pain creates pain in my fear, and I’m hurt. I hurt because I don’t want to imagine you feeling the same. The feelings in me are a torment. One I never want you to experience. A torment, you should never have to feel. A torment, I can prevent.

Therefore, I’ll face my fear with a thunderous determination. I’ll flow through the hurt, like rain. And I will hold my Angel, like the wind.