I step outside to clear my head
In my hand a cigarette slowly burns
Reciting every word never said
Ashes fall as this world turns

Standing here alone, with a heart
Beating, fleeting, hurt so furious
Cold in this wind, Love and I apart
This relationship of ours, so curious

You come and you go with ease
I stand and stay, always scared
My mind, my heart, begging please
The grim reality, I’m unprepared

I spend these hours out in the dark
Smoke swirling through the night
A poor soul standing broken, so stark
A tarnished love, unending plight

Like the dark before and inside me
I’ll linger until cured by light
Creeping closer towards insanity
Standing, waiting, here in the night

I inhale deep so that it stings
The smoke burns and calms my head
A sad glowing ember, warmth it brings
Body wishing, the warmth was you instead